The Battle With In

February 26, 2009 at 1:51 pm · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: big husky, life chronicles

The Battle With In

Job 13:15
Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.

The battle within is deep and heavy burdened.

I have traveled the road of hurt, deceit, and

toiled with the depth of lies.

In my heart I have allowed others to destroy

what you have entrusted to me from Your

abundant life.

My hold has been a death grip for I walk in sight

and not by the power of Jesus.

My truth has become insufficient because my

content has been etched in sin.

Nothing shall separate me from the love, then

how’s come I feel so far away from you?

You said I will never leave you so then it means

I have left from Your worship of truth.

They slay me because I allow them with no regard

for whom besides me that it shall hurt.

My selfish ways have stayed fast in continually

being right before my face.

The battle with in is I want to do right but I feel

so uncomfortable there.

i have been stuck in sin so long that it seems only

right that I stay in it’s glare.

The battle with in has caused my flesh to gratify

beyond my spirit.

I am being slayed continually so God I trust that

you will show up to end it.

Whatever is holding me back I deem that I can’t

rid of it on my own.

I am opening up about my failures, and I want to

be reconciled unto the Lord.

  Life has been a little rough  I admit I put on a good face. God I need to renew my mind so that there will not be a trace of ANY sin.  Someone called me the other day and said Darnell I heard you were dead. I have been told this before but this time I looked at the things I have done and the sins that are still there and said I want better no matter what it takes.  You know the bible says die daily. Meaning this life you have to allow death to come in for life to be lived abundantly.  So some people I have to let go of and something’s I have to leave alone.  Not because they are no good but they are bringing death to what is supposed to be living.  My health is one thing I have never had to worry about because I have been ok for the most part.  I eat to much.  I am officially done eating certain stuff.  I am officially done with certain things because people can’t slay you if you are up under the Lord. People really can’t slay you if you are giving them God, because then they are trying to slay God.That scripture up top lets me know I wouldn’t be able to be slayed if I was under God’s control.  See because people can only get to people whom are slaves to them.  I am neither a slave nor an idiot.  God forgive me. People whom I know forgive me if I have been knowingly or unknowingly holy.  In Jesus name amen. 

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Search Me

February 24, 2009 at 6:04 pm · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: big husky

Search Me

Psalm 77 (King James Version)

Psalm 77

 ^{1 I} cried unto God with my voice, even unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me.

 ^{2 In} the day of my trouble I sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.

 ^{3 I} remembered God, and was troubled: I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah.

 ^{4 Thou} holdest mine eyes waking: I am so troubled that I cannot speak.

 ^{5 I} have considered the days of old, the years of ancient times.

 ^{6 I} call to remembrance my song in the night: I commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.

 ^{7 Will} the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more?

 ^{8 Is} his mercy clean gone for ever? doth his promise fail for evermore?

 ^{9 Hath} God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies? Selah.

 ^{10 And} I said, This is my infirmity: but I will remember the years of the right hand of the most High.

 ^{11 I} will remember the works of the LORD: surely I will remember thy wonders of old.

 ^{12 I} will meditate also of all thy work, and talk of thy doings.

 ^{13 Thy} way, O God, is in the sanctuary: who is so great a God as our God?

 ^{14 Thou} art the God that doest wonders: thou hast declared thy strength among the people.

 ^{15 Thou} hast with thine arm redeemed thy people, the sons of Jacob and Joseph. Selah.

 ^{16 The} waters saw thee, O God, the waters saw thee; they were afraid: the depths also were troubled.

 ^{17 The} clouds poured out water: the skies sent out a sound: thine arrows also went abroad.

 ^{18 The} voice of thy thunder was in the heaven: the lightnings lightened the world: the earth trembled and shook.

 ^{19 Thy} way is in the sea, and thy path in the great waters, and thy footsteps are not known.

 ^{20  Thou} leddest thy people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

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As I Seek Your Face

February 23, 2009 at 8:23 am · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: life chronicles. big husky

As I Seek Your Face

 
 
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
There no is no place
I’d rather be.
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
I find my purpose and
destiny.
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
I see how you defeat
my enemies.
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
I know in Your love is
where I forever want
to dwell.
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
When I see Your face
the gates of hell shall
not prevail.
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
I find in You a billion
more possibilities.
As I seek Your face.
As I seek Your face.
I can live in life ever
so abundantly.
Seek Ye First,
The Kingdom Of God,
And His Righteousness;
And All These Things Shall
Be Added Unto You.
As I seek Your face
and all that You represent
I shall inherit the king-
dom of heaven.
 
 
 
  Why do some people seem more prosperous physically,mentally,spiritually.  Probably because they have been seeking God.  When you seek God and look to God for everything you do you cannot go wrong.  It is amazing.  When you follow God, He will direct your path.  You should SEEK God.  Because seeking God will give you peace, love, joy, caring, compassion, temperance, and a multitude of things.  Be blessed and study chapter 27 of Psalms.  Thank You God for this love You give so well.

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Suicide

February 19, 2009 at 11:21 pm · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: big husky, life chronicles, poetry, Suicide

 Suicide
 
 
 
 
 
 
I remember the first time I tried I messed
up bad I ain’t going to hide, took laxative
pills.
Man all I did was boo boo all day that’s for
real.
Then I had this really really bad dream.
Woke up and found out I was living the
nightmare without no screams.
Messed up I had the gun to my face, blast
off was almost official ’til something else
took place.
The devil was in my ear, I was high off of
the weed smoke but then the devil made
haste.
He was saying stuff like you ain’t spit.
You going to ruin everyone’s life anyway
just get over it.
He even claimed you got a die real G’s don’t
live.
Don’t be a coward come on I got better for
you and your kids.
My destiny was at stake and my purpose
to, this is why I bring the truth so real to
all of you.
I had made to many mess ups, it was time
to go.
I felt God was leaving me hanging nice and
slow.
I couldn’t hear him with the banging in my
head.
I for sure wanted death because I was better
off dead.
Then a voice said to me quite nice, small,
and still.
You are the apple of my eye, and yes son
I am truly real.
I was like no way you gotta be kidding me.
He said this is about more than you but your
family’s whole destiny.
I said to myself Tia, and the kids will be
better without me.
4 years later I was redeemed no longer doubting
the real G.
He said I gave you that smile for such times
as this.
I said but Lord she don’t love me, the world
hates me, and my moms is pissed.
Then he sent some friends who were there
to help pick me up.
Mr.E, Thaddeus and Karen, Tia, Deshawn,
Teyanna, and of course Ma’Leah helped to
fill my cup.
See when Ma’Leah was born I was going to
say “F the World.”
I was preaching,doing comedy, and playing
the well known church world.
At this time I was looking for a way out.
I was done and then February 14, 2005
came without a shadow of a doubt.
See I got the call she was about to be born
just as I was getting to blow my last horn.
See no one knew this I had fallen in the deep-
est depression I had ever faced.
Now God had rescued me by giving me my
saving grace.
Karen prayed for me, Mr. E was by my side.
Thaddeus was helping Karen pray, and Tia
and my other kids wanted me by their side.
Ma’Leah Danielle Roebuck and God was the
reason some of you even have heard of a
Big Husky.
She was born and suicide has no longer been
apart of your boy, that would be me.
 
 
Somebody Pray right now. Someone is getting ready to end it all. Watch what God will do.
  See I was driving today and God showed me that someone is getting ready to commit suicide. I am begging you whoever you are to not end it all. You are more than a conqueror. You are awesome.  God said that he would never leave you nor forsake you. God by the power vested in me from you give that person the peace that passeth all understanding for this particular situation right now.  Love on them. They need you right now. Devil get your hands off of them. I love you Jesus. In Jesus name we pray amen. He said tell your testimony.  I am being honest with you it is a hurting feeling when you are feeling all alone.  My daughter being born helped me to really see what God was saying.  I was living with my friend R.P at the time and even he didn’t realize I was getting ready to blast myself at his crib.  I had fallen.  See I was looking at my life as over and empty.  God showed me that when he died on the cross 2009 years ago he died just for those times.  He made me see that my cup runneth over.  I understand what you are going through today but if God can take me from the point of no return to the point of life being good then I am going to sing his praises.  People say Darnell why do you show love to people who don’t do gospel because I have been there.  Some people are looking to do better they just need someone to say I love you and I am praying for you.  When Jesus fixes you I am still going to love you and be praying for you. This is to those who are sitting on death’s door.  Know that he saved me and he can save you.  So if you wanna be saved call me at 717-557-4799.  By the way I was doing comedy, preaching and everything.  I love you Lord. I thank you Mr.E, Thaddeus and Karen, Tia and my kids. Hallelujah. Amen.

Darnell “B.I.G. Husky” Roebuck
Life Chronicles With Big Husky
P.O. Box 13081
Harrisburg, Pa 17110
717-623-2394
thedarroeway@yahoo.com
www.myspace.com/officiallybighusky08
B.I.G. Husky
Believe.In.God. Husky

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February 5, 2009 at 11:28 am · Filed under Uncategorized

Raining Up

The bible says if I be lifted up on the earth I will draw all men unto me.  So I will send everything I have up to God for his glory and not mine, so that we may all see Jesus.

I rain up my blessing of love and

appreciation to you God.

For you are my all and all through-

out all of my tears, and the times

that were hard.

I rain my praises up to you so that

your love flows through and through.

I rain my love up to you for you are

the LOVE I want , and I surely need.

I rain my worship up to your ears

of a most joyful noise to you for my

destiny.

I rain my smile up to you for the

merry heart doeth good like a me-

dicine.

I rain my heart up to you for repair

to do the work of you, while being

steadfast, unmovable, always abiding

in the work of the Lord.

I rain my praises up by seeking you

first, gaining the riches in Your glory.

I rain my compassion, caring, and love

to other people up to you so that if

you be lifted up, You will draw ALL

men unto you.

  In my repentance to those whom I have harmed with words, deeds, or carelessness of my ministry I lift up heart so that God can cleanse it for the betterment of the body of Christ.  I was at my Aunt Bett’s funeral today and God showed me the gift of death helps to bring new life to you. So I thank God for her death because I have seen love from family and friends.  I love you and I am praying for you in Jesus name amen.

Darnell “B.I.G. Husky” Roebuck
Life Chronicles With Big Husky
P.O. Box 13081
Harrisburg, Pa 17110
717-623-2394
thedarroeway@yahoo.com
www.myspace.com/officiallybighusky08
B.I.G. Husky
Believe.In.God. Husky

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Have You Found Favour?

February 2, 2009 at 11:25 am · Filed under Uncategorized

FIRST I WANT TO SAY GO STEELERS FOR YOUR GREAT SEASON.  CHAMPIONS FOR THE 6 TH TIME AND THE ONLY NFL TEAM TO EVER WIN 6 SUPERBOWLS.  ANYWAY.

HAVE YOU FOUND FAVOUR?

THESE 2 PARTICULAR SCRIPTURES WERE LAID ON MY HEART FROM PROVERBS THE 18 TH CHAPTER.

 21Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

 22Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD.

NOW I WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU  ABOUT LIFE AND MARRIAGE.  MARRIAGE IS A WONDERFUL COMMUNION OF 2 PEOPLE WHO ARE AS 1 IN GOD.  IT TOOK ME ALMOST 6 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT I FOUND MY LIFE AND THE GREATEST FAVOR OF GOD BECAUSE OF MY MARRIAGE.  WHAT DO YOU MEAN PREACHER? WELL A LOT OF PEOPLE WILL TELL YOU THEY GOT MARRIED FOR MANY REASONS BUT FEW WILL TELL YOU THAT THEY WANTED TO GET MARRIED AND THEIR MARRIAGE TO BE A BLESSING.  I REMEMBER 5 YEARS AGO WHEN TIA AND I WERE GETTING READY TO GET MARRIED I SAID TO HER “OUR MARRIAGE WILL BE A BLESSING TO OTHER FOLKS.”  SAYING THAT SENTENCE SPOKE LIFE INTO NOT JUST US BUT THOSE AROUND US.  IT ALSO BROUGHT ON SOME OF THE WORST CHALLENGES EVER.  I HAVE BEEN A GOOD MAN NOT GOING TO JAIL, ROBBING PEOPLE, STEALING,KILLING, OR ANY OF THAT.  MATTER OF FACT I WAS ALRIGHT BY THE WORLD’S STANDARDS. I WAS LACKING IN THIS AREA WITH MY WIFE: I WAS IMMATURE, SELFISH, A CHEATER, LIAR, WHOREMONGER, AND ALL AROUND SPIRITUALLY BROKEN.  BEING SPIRITUALLY BROKEN WAS WHAT WAS SETTING ME A PART FROM GOD AND TIA.  TRIALS AND TEST WERE COMING AND I WAS FAILING THEM IN THE WORST WAY.  THIS YEAR I SAID A SILENT PRAYER TO GOD FOR 2009 “REVEAL TIA TO ME  ALL OVER AGAIN.”  EVEN THOUGH THE DAYS OF THIS NEW YEAR ARE SHORT RIGHT NOW I AM LEARNING MORE BY KEEPING MY EYES FOCUSED ON GOD.  ONE WAY WAS ALL OF THESE YEARS I HAVE BEEN LIVING [33] I HAVE BUMPED MY HEAD TO GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.  NEVER HAVE I SLEPT WITHOUT IT BECAUSE OF BEING HYPER SO I THOUGHT.  FOR THE FIRST TIME I FELL ASLEEP IN TIA’S ARMS AND I FELT MORE COMFORT THERE GOING TO SLEEP THAN EVER BEFORE. I SAY THIS BECAUSE I AM NOT COMFORTABLE DEPENDING ON OTHER PEOPLE.  TIA INCLUDED BUT GOD HAS SHOWED ME THAT FAULT THROUGH GOING TO SLEEP.  IN MARRIAGE YOU SHOULD BE LEARNING ALL OF THE TIME.  TIA AND I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT EACH OTHER.  ANYWAY THE POWER OF LIFE AND DEATH ARE IN THE TONGUE IS THE SCRIPTURE RIGHT BEFORE HE THAT FINDETH A WIFE.  HOW MANY OF US ARE SPEAKING DEATH ON OUR MARRIAGE?  SPEAKING DEATH WHEN WE TALK TO OUR KIDS ABOUT OUR PARENTS “YOUR DADDY AIN’T NO GOOD.”  EVEN LITTLE SUBTLE STUFF LIKE ” CAN YOU WASH THE DISHES, BUT YOU PROBABLY AIN’T GOING TO DO THEM RIGHT.”  YOUR POWER TO HAVE A GOOD MARRIAGE OR RELATIONSHIP OF ANY KIND STARTS WITH YOUR TONGUE.  IF YOU SPEAK IT THEN IT MUST COME TRUE.  “I AM SO SICK OF THAT MAN, I CAN’T STAND HIM” AND THEN YOU WONDER WHY YOU HAVE GOTTEN SICK AND HE NO LONGER STANDS AROUND LISTENING TO YOUR MESS.  BECAUSE YOU HAVE SPOKEN IT INTO THE ATMOSPHERE.  IF YOU SPEAK SOMETHING INTO THE ATMOSPHERE IT WILL COME TO PASS BECAUSE GOD OR THE DEVIL WILL ANSWER IT.  SEE THE DEVIL WILL TRY YOU OUT ON YOUR WORDS.  HAVE YOU SICK AND ON YOUR DEATH BED. THIS IS WHY JAMES CHAPTER 1 VERSE 19 SAYS Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath.  BECAUSE YOUR WORDS CAN BRING HELL OR HEAVEN TO A SITUATION.  LOOK AT YOUR SITUATION AND SEE IF YOU ARE SPEAKING LIFE INTO IT OR DEATH. MEANING THIS YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THE DEVIL DOESN’T WANT YOU ON ONE ACCORD WITH YOUR WIFE. BEING ON ONE ACCORD MEANS SOMETHING.  WHEN YOU ARE ON ONE ACCORD WITH YOUR WIFE/HUSBAND YOU ARE ON ONE ACCORD WITH GOD.  BECAUSE IN ORDER TO OBTAIN THE FAVOR OF GOD HE HAS TO BE THE HEAD OF YOUR HOUSEHOLD.  WHEN MEN REALIZE THIS THEY WILL HAVE AN EASIER TIME. BECAUSE THE HEAD STARTS WITH GOD.  ANYTHING I HAVE TOLD TIA THAT GOD SAID AND I WAS ON ONE ACCORD WITH ALL 3 TIA HAS NEVER EVEN QUESTIONED IT SHE JUST DID IT.  SO GOD HAS SOMETHING’S TO SAY ARE YOU SPEAKING LIFE ABOUT IT OR DEATH? I LOVE YOU MEN AND WOMEN OF GOD.  GET THE REST BY STUDYING THE WORD AND NOT JUST TAKING MY WORD FOR IT.   

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