The Battle With In
The Battle With In
Job 13:15
Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.
The battle within is deep and heavy burdened.
I have traveled the road of hurt, deceit, and
toiled with the depth of lies.
In my heart I have allowed others to destroy
what you have entrusted to me from Your
abundant life.
My hold has been a death grip for I walk in sight
and not by the power of Jesus.
My truth has become insufficient because my
content has been etched in sin.
Nothing shall separate me from the love, then
how’s come I feel so far away from you?
You said I will never leave you so then it means
I have left from Your worship of truth.
They slay me because I allow them with no regard
for whom besides me that it shall hurt.
My selfish ways have stayed fast in continually
being right before my face.
The battle with in is I want to do right but I feel
so uncomfortable there.
i have been stuck in sin so long that it seems only
right that I stay in it’s glare.
The battle with in has caused my flesh to gratify
beyond my spirit.
I am being slayed continually so God I trust that
you will show up to end it.
Whatever is holding me back I deem that I can’t
rid of it on my own.
I am opening up about my failures, and I want to
be reconciled unto the Lord.
Life has been a little rough I admit I put on a good face. God I need to renew my mind so that there will not be a trace of ANY sin. Someone called me the other day and said Darnell I heard you were dead. I have been told this before but this time I looked at the things I have done and the sins that are still there and said I want better no matter what it takes. You know the bible says die daily. Meaning this life you have to allow death to come in for life to be lived abundantly. So some people I have to let go of and something’s I have to leave alone. Not because they are no good but they are bringing death to what is supposed to be living. My health is one thing I have never had to worry about because I have been ok for the most part. I eat to much. I am officially done eating certain stuff. I am officially done with certain things because people can’t slay you if you are up under the Lord. People really can’t slay you if you are giving them God, because then they are trying to slay God.That scripture up top lets me know I wouldn’t be able to be slayed if I was under God’s control. See because people can only get to people whom are slaves to them. I am neither a slave nor an idiot. God forgive me. People whom I know forgive me if I have been knowingly or unknowingly holy. In Jesus name amen.
